toxicity i need you to know just exactly what i am giving up. i need you to know so that you don�t ever take my choice for granted, so that you understand how difficult it is to make. victoria, for me, is like getting to breathe after a long time spent underwater in a toxic ocean. it is like sitting down in a chair that is your absolute perfect comfort level, letting out a sigh, and knowing that you will never again sit in a chair so perfectly comfortable. i am content here on a level that is soul-deep, a level that goes down to the roots of my being. i am leaving all of that to go back to a place that makes me feel poisoned and suffocated, and once i leave here i can never come back because building a life with you means staying in calgary. leaving here means giving up on an education that could potentially have made me something great whereas in calgary the best future i have to look forward to is a life of mediocrity and wasted talent. and it means giving up raising a child, because i promised myself a long time ago that i would never raise a baby in a city like calgary. i�ll make it work in calgary, i�m going to do my best to focus on all the things i like about the city, like kensington, my friends, you. just know what it is that i�m giving up to be with you. i love you. i can�t be without you. if i have to give up everything to keep us together, then i will. |