you are my oasis my friends keep asking each other if i am married now. and it's strange because the answer is technically no but realistically yes, i am as married as i will ever be, regardless of the presence of a ring on my finger. when you know... i am writing her an entire book of love letters for christmas. except knowing me i will probably just give it to her whenever it is finished. i think she thinks i don't feel as much for her as she does for me but i am just being quieter about it. this place we live in finally feels like OUR home, now that the overgrown teenager has moved out. you would think that moving in with someone after only a few weeks of knowing them would be catastrophic but we haven't had a single fight, not really. we butt heads sometimes over silly things because we are both stubborn and opinionated but that's as heated as it ever gets. after years and years of relationships that were nothing but endless fighting, this feels like an oasis in the goddamn desert. i didn't even know it was possible to be this happy with someone else, this free of conflict. this doesn't feel like the end the quest for love, but merely the beginning of loving all of someone else's selves. |