i hiked 17k uphill yesterday. genuine rock-climbing thousands of feet up through the woods and along the coast hiking. i weigh something like 180lbs at 5 feet tall so this feels incredible.
i can't wait to find out what my body can do next.
the moon is full on friday. we are writing letters this week to people we want to let go of so we can burn them beneath the moon and close the circle.
feels like i should just print off this whole diary and burn it.
i'm feeling sexually weird lately. as if i want to be celibate until sex feels like mutual worship again. my limbs feel strange and wrong, i don't want to be touched but it isn't because i don't feel attractive. i just want to be focusing on other things.
it is hard to express such things to a partner though.
i am breathing my way through it all, slowly and surely.