closer and closer to thirty ... AH
i get older again next week.
this has been a year of so many evolutions.
finally, i love my job, for the first time ever. i learn new things every day, things i never would have had an opportunity to learn without this experience. i know that what i do is directly beneficial to someone else. i actually want to get up every morning to go to work. i underestimated before how good a feeling that would be and am grateful to the circumstances that brought this job into my life and grateful to myself for being willing to take the enormous risk of moving in this direction.
i feel much more grounded and rational, much more aware of who i am as person and what i need to feel good. i take better care of myself, i actually go to yoga regularly now and make the effort to do it at home by myself. managing my feelings of insecurity has become easier with time. still a process but it isn't causing nearly as much conflict in my life.
adulthood came slowly but it is starting to settle in, and every day i find myself thinking more about the next step: family. bringing a baby into my life. preparing for being a life-long parent to a wee, unique human bean. it feels good to be ready to think about that and actually work towards making it a reality.