i miss you extra hard lately.
so many things i want to tell you. what my life looks like now: so full of success for the first time in a long time.
where would you be now, if you hadn't died? what would your life look like? i can imagine possibilities but they are flimsy and pointless in a way that hurts so i don't often.
i wish you were here but of course everything would have been very different if you hadn't died.