lucy i am in a place in my life where i do acid and paint my naked body in candlelight just to watch watercolors swirl over my skin. i want to hold quartz crystals beneath my tongue and crawl into the earth, do enough hallucinogens to believe in an entirely new reality. the only time anything makes sense is when i'm hallucinating, when i enter a realm where it goes without question that i am more faery than human. this is a dangerous thing to know. |