do not want to do this anymore
i am getting really tired of constantly feeling like an idiot because i don't at all understand how other people think.
i can only do things the way i know how to do them and if it alienates me from relationships, so be it. i won't apologize or feel guilty for it anymore. i would rather be alone than attempt to play all these stupid fucking mind games when all i've ever wanted is just to be straightforward.