break-up blues, go the fuck away
i haven't been able to eat before seven at night since saturday. i can't bring myself to eat in the mornings, or early, because that is when i feel this most poignantly. it is when i feel indignant, hurt, ashamed, bewildered, confused and just flat out sad.
i feel like a weak person for still hurting this much but when i think about it, it only happened three days ago, and if i don't deal with it now it will probably come slap me in the face later.
there are so many different stages to this, different levels of emotion. i keep bouncing from being hurt, to furious, to broken, to totally confused, to sad. i flat out do not understand how someone can talk about moving out together at the end of the summer and then break up with you two weeks later, and then claim they'd been thinking about doing it for a while even though you tried to break up with them a month before for the same reason they're breaking up with you now and they wouldn't let you, bawled in your arms and basically begged you not to do it to them.
and now you're so cold about it and i don't get it. what is really going on in your head, or was it actually that easy to forget me?