what happens to you and i?
i had a dream last night that i went over to your house after work because i needed a hug and a good talk and there was a party raging when i got there that i hadn't been invited to.
and i'm still upset about it this morning because aside from the showing up out of the blue part, this has basically happened before.
i feel like i have let so many things slide in our friendship, on your part, because i think of you as family. but i am starting, finally, to realize that you don't see me the same way. i am not to you what you are to me.
but we're about to drive down the coast for five days with two of our best friends, and we're about to move in together in the fall. i don't really know how to deal with the way in which i am re-evaluating our friendship at a dangerous time.