the earth and the water i am hungry for something else. there is an emptiness in my abdomen that cannot be filled and it aches and aches until my head hurts and my eyes hurt and i don't think i can stay conscious any longer. sometimes i dream about opening all of my veins to the wind and letting myself dry out. i dream about making my body as empty as i feel. signifier does not equal signified, my empty body does not match my twisted mind. the desire to self-destruct overcomes me every time. there is nothing left here. |