i don't know how to love.
i feel like this is something i used to know how to do and it has been replaced by bitterness and resentment for everyone i encounter. i don't want to be this person, i don't want to be so filled with hate. i want to love, i want to see the good things in people, in the world, i feel blinded by the bad.
how do i find the balance? the good, the bad, the shades of grey, all held together like the pieces of a kaleidoscope to make one whole picture; i'm stuck on the details, each individual shard of glass, i can't see the greater design.
i do not want to be so filled with negativity.