what do you say when i'm not around?
i don't trust any of the people i know. this is only just occurring to me now.
if i were someone else looking at me, i would think i was just paranoid and hypercritical. sometimes i wonder if it's true. then i remember that the people i'm friends with make a hobby of stabbing each other in the back and i start to wonder when exactly it will be my turn. i constantly feel on edge when i'm around them, i'm just waiting to be taken down.
maybe i am just paranoid. i have no way to know. i don't like feeling as though people are talking about me behind my back, even though i have a really disgusting habit of talking about people behind their backs.