hearts and heads
I think it has a lot to do with the fact that this is the first time I've ever felt like I don't need to change myself for the person I'm dating. Maybe because I feel like you accept me anyway, even though we're different in a lot of ways, and maybe it's also that my sense of self is so strong now that I really believe that I shouldn't have to change - that whomever I happen to be with should like me for me, not who I think they want me to be. Maybe I'm just less neurotic about the whole thing this time around. Either way, I'm so happy with the way things are right now and with where they seem to be going. Maybe it's too soon to say but I don't really see myself being with anyone else for a good while. I'm in it for the long haul, and when it comes to stuff like this, sometimes you just know.
In other news, I'm about ready to slaughter my sister. If I hear one more inane thing about high school graduation I swear I will shoot myself in the head, or take a fucking machete to her dress. I didn't go to my grad for a reason - I hate these kinds of things, I hate how dramatic they get and how people make such a ridiculous deal out of it when really... how hard is it to graduate high school? Maybe it's just me but it doesn't strike me as being much of an accomplishment to have finished your twelfth year of school, especially when standardization has made the general education process retardedly easy. I would have been absolutely shocked if either my sister or I had not graduated, and to flip out and celebrate it with something as grand as a three hundred dollar dress, a limo AND a hotel room for the after grad party seems completely ridiculous. Not to mention all the other general flipping outage that seems to be going along with all of these things. I'm so sick of hearing about it, the same way I was sick of hearing about it two years ago. I'm sick of how bratty it makes her and how rude she's been to everyone lately; how selfish she's been in the last little while. I can't deal with chicks like my sister and the only reason I put up with it is BECAUSE she's my sister.