commitmentphobia i called myself a commitmentphobe for years without really knowing what it meant. to know what it meant to be afraid, i had to know what it was first. you have shown me what it feels like to commit to someone, to promise to stay even when they try your patience and push your boundaries. to promise to grow together and find the better parts of yourself by getting to know yourself at your worst. understanding commitment is learning to fear it all over again, and learning to overcome it. i have been afraid of missing out on other potential relationships, without realizing that fear causes me to miss out on all the potential within the relationship i am already a part of. thank you for waiting this out with me, for challenging me, for being willing to grow with me. for committing to be here through all of it, for showing me how to stay. |