trouble in... well this is certainly not paradise
i don't shut people out because i'm afraid of letting them in; i don't shut people out because i'm afraid to trust. i shut people out because i always end up having feelings for the people i let in and they, without fail, never see me as more than a friend. and then if i admit to having feelings for them, it destroys the friendship that i valued so much or at the very least makes it really awkward.
i don't have any idea how to keep this from happening. either falling for my friends or the fact that they never seem to return the feelings.