i write better when i'm in love
i have never dated the people i have been in love with, and i have never been in love with the people i have dated. this is largely because i am chronically falling in love with my best friends.
it's happening again, and the thing is that it is beautiful, but i cannot share it with you because often what is beautiful is also terrifying.
it occurred to me today that i keep falling in love with my best friends because of the people they are and also because of the nature of our friendship. and that i don't need that to change, that i don't need you to know how i feel because it would change how we are with each other, and that would ruin what i love so much about it.
i think the sun shines out of your ass but i'll never tell you that, it would just go to your head. you are the last person on the planet i would ever have thought i would feel this way towards but there you are and there it is and i guess i'll see where it takes me.
and the funny thing is that we are chasing adventure together, but while you are seeking adventure in the great beyond, i have found my adventure in you.