I'm not the kind of girl you date casually, not the kind you call up for sex when you're horny late one night. I'm not the girl you fuck in a bar or have a one night stand with. I'm the girl you treat right, the girl you date, take out, make an effort to keep. I grew up traditionally, believing that sex is something you do with the person you love and it should be between the two of you, not a whole bunch of other people. Intimacy is a private thing and best shared exclusively. In my relationships, this is what I need. I'm not saying it's how everyone should function because that's not it at all; everyone has the right to have the love life that suits them the best.
I tried to be outside the box and open-minded about it, I've been trying since I knew what it meant to want more than one person. But mentally I can't handle it; I'm not a secure enough person to ever be able to trust the person I'm dating to sleep with someone else and still want me after. I just want to have the option to not question but I don't think I'll ever be able to ask for monogamy because I can't bring myself to hold someone down like that. I guess I'm just waiting for the person who chooses to want me and only me without my having to ask for it.
I don't think that's so much to want, really.