unforgiveables I'm done with you completely. And it sucks because I never wanted you to not be a part of my life. On a really naive level I believed we'd always know each other, we'd always be friends and be able to be there for each other. I don't ever let people in without at least hoping they'll be the kind of people who will stick around for awhile. And it's not that you aren't sticking around, it's that I can no longer bear to have you in my life at all. It's that I have reached my limit of the things I let people get away with, the limit of things I am able to forgive. I have reached my limit of humility, the place where I can no longer put aside my pride to do the bigger thing. What you did, collectively, was unforgivable. I was hoping my disgust for the situation would fade but it hasn't at all and likely won't for a very long time. The situation infuriates me and I can't believe that something so very HIGH SCHOOL happened to me almost three years out of the game. I don't need people like that in my life, I do not need to deal with the immaturity you bring into my life. To be perfectly honest the entire lot of you make me want to never date another woman ever again. No wonder people have such hideous ideas of what lesbianism looks like; you portray all the stereotypes they expect you to without even thinking about what that means for lesbian women as a whole. Would it really be SO difficult to define yourselves by the many facets of who you are and not JUST by the fact that you're gay? I am no more proud of being gay than I am of being a writer or being a daughter or being human. They are just parts of a many-layered whole. I hope to the gods of karma and fate that there are other people out there who share this same view. |