goddamn my polyamorous heart
i am just not going to think so negatively about this.
i love you, i am always going to love you. my heart is always going to remember the way yours feels. i am always going to want to hold your hand and watch the stars.
the nature of the way we love each other will always make things difficult for us in so many different and complicated ways but it is what it is, there is nothing we can do about it but try to be in each other's lives in whatever capacity we are able to at any given time.
three years later and i still feel the same way i did that day in my bed with the lamplight and your amber eyes and my heart jumping out of my mouth. i am just going to accept that you can't love me in the way i need to be loved but you love me regardless, in your own way. i don't expect anything anymore.