keeping the faith
Can everyone see something my eyes that I am not myself willing to acknowledge, is that what this is? Their suggestions and the FREQUENCY of those suggestions from people who are basically strangers make me question my own feelings. Do I care too much? Is this more than what friends do? Do I care this much because I have feelings for you or are you really just the amazing friend I've made you out to be? I'm so excited to see you again but now I find myself questioning what exactly that means and I hate it, can't you just be my best friend without anyone wondering if there's something more between us? Can't you just be my best friend without ME wondering if there's something more between us? I've never been able to tell the difference between friends that mean the world to me and friends I'm falling for.
You are so important to me that I don't think it matters either way. If something is meant to happen it just will and if not, I just want you in my life. I don't want to lose you over how fucked and confused I always am.