i even confuse myself
And then I realized... the reason I haven't been painting at all is not that I lack inspiration, but that I simply do not have and haven't had decent brushes for months now because we always end up using our brushes for gluing things. And every time I reach for a canvas with the intention to paint, I always end up putting it down and going "oh, I have no paint brushes. Must pick some up tomorrow" and then I never do.
How ridiculous. Tomorrow I really am going to go pick up some paint brushes and acrylic paints; art supplies that I cannot afford but somehow are more important than all the things I "need" to buy at the moment (like new work shoes because mine have dreadful holes in them, or birthday presents, or vegetables)