temporary change
11:15 a.m. on 2008-12-29
I didn't get purple in my hair because you told me not to I stopped being a vegetarian when I met you because you complained about it being too hard to cook for me. I watched Batman and the Food channel with you even though both of those things bored me to tears. I cleaned your house and spent money on food for the house even though neither of those things are something I would ever normally do. I didn't get my nose pierced or any other piercing because you decided facial piercings would look bad on me. I stopped watching the movies I like because they weren't movies you'd like. I only hung out with the friends of mine you liked and stopped spending time with the ones you weren't even willing to give the time of day to. I didn't party with my friends at all this summer because every time I got invited you guilt-tripped me into not going. I stopped using words I would normally use because I could tell it bothered you whenever you had to ask me to explain a word. I bought brand-label t-shirts even though it made me want to shoot myself in the face every time (the prices are so ridiculous - you could buy a normal equally nice t-shirt for half the price, the mark-up is only because you're paying for a brand) because the one time I told you about how I liked to shop in thrift stores you looked so completely disgusted and you laughed at me when I said I didn't like to wear brands. I completely stopped smoking pot for a good six months and kept my interest in drugs to myself just because you said it bothered you so much, even though my views of drug use are obviously really different from yours. I pretended to be interested in the idea of an open relationship because it seemed to be what you wanted, when really I believe so strongly that a relationship should be between two people, not five. I am NEVER changing so much of myself for another person ever again. Ever ever again. Compromising my morals and my values was not in any way worth it.
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