this might make sense later
I didn't think it would be this hard, or that I'd miss you this much.
You know, it's odd, but all the music that I listen to and all the music that has been such a big part of my life for so long no longer really relates to my current life or who I am now. I never realized it at the time but a lot of the music I listen to is very dark and melodramatic. I still enjoy it on an aesthetic level, but on a personal level I don't really connect to it anymore. On the one hand I wish it still meant as much to me as it used to, but on the other hand it's comforting to be able to say that I no longer feel like my life is a series of broken pieces.
Maybe it's just time to find new music to tune my life to. Time to find a new soundtrack.