if you were a kiss, i know i'd be a hug
I love the way my heart quakes sometimes and how being able to have insider-slang with my sister makes my life feel that much more awesome. The summer needs to come faster so that it can once again lead the way to epic adventures.
Not to get all emo [although let's be honest, what else are diaries for?] but it's like this - sometimes, no matter how much I love my life, I still can't escape the moments of nostalgia that completely drag me back to who I used to be. I want to burn everything that reminds me of all of you, just so that these feelings don't keep coming back, but at the same time these memories make me who I am, and I need them.
Sometimes that negative shit makes me want to just shake myself off and start over, I don't want to be that whiny person. Today was National High Five day and I basically had a really good time at work high-fiving everybody in sight until J the jerk decided to completely break my crayons by fighting with me about music [something he likes to do frequently because he hates that I listen to "that emo crap", not that he'd ever ask WHY I listen to it and the reason itself is far more important]. And I haven't been able to get my mellow back at all, it just drained all the positivity out of me. J always drains the positively out of me and I can't stand it; he's the king of pessimism and negativity.
Life is good, enjoy it, stop hating yourself and everyone else so much. Remember that we all appreciate different things in different ways, and just because you don't jive with a person's way of being doesn't mean you should put it down or create negativity between you. If you don't like it, don't do it, it's as simple as that.