no pretty words
is it worse to feel your heart break or to watch yourself break someone else's heart?
it is agony watching you hurt and knowing that i am the cause of that hurt and that there is nothing i can do to make it better. it is agony to not be able to say that i miss you, to wrap my arms around you, to have to keep my distance because it would be worse to mislead you.
my worst fear right now is that you will hate me, that i will lose you entirely, and i wouldn't blame you but it hurts so much.