we fucked in the dark in front of floor to ceiling windows, the jewelled city spreading out beyond us like some opulent fantasy come to life. all our limbs tangled and untangled, nearly a decade of behind the scenes exchanges between the three of us finally taking center stage.
sex is never just sex for me. it never comes without feelings. i am learning to harness this in a way that strengthens my relationships with friends, lovers and lover-friends rather than creating chaos in my heart. i can love and be loved and feel the glory of your body in my hands, and need nothing more than these moments.
i am envisioning a future where there is a house surrounded by trees, near water, filled with queer lovers of all genders sharing space, making art, entwining limbs, raising children together as many leaders rather than as individual parents. i am envisioning a life of magic and wonder without boundaries.