a lack of
i have no desire.
i want nothing.
i am in a strange emotional limbo that is a lot like floating in and out with the tide. i go to work, i stay home, i go out if summoned but make no effort to make plans with anyone. i would see few friends ever if i didn't already live with most of my closest friends. i go to work. i come home. occasionally i take walks if my feet are itchy enough to carry me, but mostly i don't.
i am neither sad nor lonely. just emotionally exhausted. unable to exert the energy required to maintain friendships with people i don't live with or who don't spend copious amounts of time in my house. unable to even contemplate the idea of romantic entanglements.
i have a lack of appetite. little desire for either sex or food, two things i am usually voraciously chasing.
a lack of passion.
i do not know how to deal with so much nothingness other than to continue floating with the tides until something pulls me out.