i get tired of being invisible, and i get tired of the fact that i am tired of being invisible, and then i just want to disappear. vicious circle.
basically i am sick of myself, sick of being sad, sick of self-loathing, sick of living in this head that just digs and criticizes and resents. sick of wearing all that frustration so visibly.
sometimes i just want to shake myself and yell SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT.