i am extracting myself from this social circle.
once upon a time, a large part of me thrived on drama. it made things more exciting, it was something to write about, a series of stories to tell. for the first time in my life, i don't want to have those kinds of stories to tell. i don't want to talk about who fucked who or the shit we got into when we were drunk or fucked up. those stories have stopped being interesting, the immaturity has begun to shine through them. i want to tell stories about meeting people, seeing interesting things, exploring the world and the personalities in it. i'm done wasting my money on things that just create drama and depression in my life.
i'm also done running away from something really good just because i listened to the judgements of others. it's not always easy and our values aren't always the same but there is love between us and i'm going to fight for it until there isn't.
i thought adventures meant partying, drinking, experimenting, all of those kinds of things. it's occurring to me now that adventures don't need to include any of those things. they also don't need to include gossip or drama.
it's time to move on from all of this and from all the pettiness and negativity. i don't want to be that person.