i'm pulling so far away from everyone i know lately, withdrawing into myself and into my relationship. partly it's to ease the fact that i'm leaving, to cut off connections now so that i have fewer people to miss when i'm gone. partly it's wanting to spend as much time as humanly possible with my girl because i'm having a hard time even acknowledging how much i'm going to miss her and how hard it's going to be. i'm not sure it's even a conscious decision; i'm not TRYING to alienate all my friends. i just don't have much of a desire to spend time with anyone else. i don't feel like i'm going to miss very many things about this city or even very many of the people i know because i'm just so ready to leave. of all the people i know here, i am only legitimately going to miss about five of them, give or take a few people.
it's just time to move on from everything here.