i said goodbye to joy in 2016
maybe it's possible to mess up so badly that there is no healing from it.
i feel like i deserve to live out the rest of my life in a state of physical and emotional discomfort. tbqh that whole "everyone deserves happiness" diatribe is bullshit. some people really don't.
sometimes the best you can hope for is a quiet life of trying to be as inoffensive as possible.