oh, the ways it changes
Writing in here feels a little weird now that I know you're reading, now I'm wondering what you'll think of my crazy mind. Also now I can't write about how I have an e-crush on you, haha.
A lot of drama went down with D last night; I basically ended up telling her everything I've been writing about here and more, about how it just wasn't working for me and how the vibe doesn't seem to be there between us. I made her cry and I feel like a complete shit because of it, but I stand by my feeling that it is better to hurt her a little now than to hurt her A LOT later. This is the first time I've been in the heartbreaker position and honestly, it's an awful feeling. I'd rather be the one with the broken heart.
On the list of good news however - Josh is going to give me one of his old starter acoustic guitars, so I am FINALLY and FOR REALS this time going to get a chance to teach myself to play. I can't wait to be able to play well enough to play and sing at the same time; if I get good enough I might make a video of it and post it somewhere. We'll see, but I am excited!