The snow outside is reflecting sunlight like a brilliant chandelier, like a million faceted crystals shining rainbows through the windows. I feel serene, cradled in light and the drafty walls of this house. Nothing has changed, although it feels like it should have.
Sometimes you just have to follow your instincts. Even when the world, society, the people you love are telling you not to do this thing you are doing, sometimes you just have to ignore them completely and listen to what your heart is telling you. Everything about this situation is wrong, but my gut instinct keeps telling me to wait it out, follow through, do what I have to to keep you in my life. So we'll see what happens.